Things have happened in the last two weeks that if you had asked me 2 months ago I'd see myself in this situation, I would have not an inkling. I'm being purposely vague for now because I don't want to jinx myself and because I sometimes need privacy even from myself to figure things out in the quiet spaces.
But all that being said... I have smiled more in the last 2 weeks than I have in months. I have rediscovered just how much I enjoy the field that I was actively in with my college education. I have had to have the guts to believe in my own skills enough to take a GIANT chance. That may or may not pan out... but at this point I really don't care. Just the experience to be through this last week has brought a lot of clarity to things in ways that make this month seem like a complete full circle to the year 2005.
When I look at what has made me the happiest over the last decade, its not money. Its not graduating college.
It's spending an afternoon on the porch making homemade ice cream.
Its walking in the middle of the forest and laughing because you can.
Its looking someone straight in the eyes and feeling a connection that years only strengthen, and not diminish.
Its trailing your fingers in the water while floating in the sun.
It's being in the moment.
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